Scream

Sitting in a crowd but I am so alone
I ask myself why GOD chose now to take you home
and then I realize time don't matter much at all
you leaving before me was gonna make me fall
fall to the hurt the rage wtf didn't they do
I know that it was GOD. there was nothing they could do
SO how do I get over this rage this pain
Cuz this is so intense I feel flesh melting away
I am trying to remember in the few days that you've been gone
I am trying to hold my head up trying to hold on
but my world is so off center I reach out for the sides
don't tell me this gets better I just lost half my life
See only you share my childhood memories
Only you knew all my dreams
You knew how to talk me down when I climbed up in a tree
I am angry I am lost I am sore I have hope
I cry looking out windows I cry when I see scope
yeah mouthwash sets me offI can't stop I can't fight
I see you in my sleep so I barely sleep at night
I walk around on edge I just snap at anything
I am sorry but this gets worse every fukkin dayo
h GOD please come get me before I do or say
This is out of order he was the baby of the bunch
LORD why please tell me why Stu had to go from us
I know I have to go on and live without him now
but I need someone to show me cuz I just don't know how

Already

It dared to be a nice day
The sun shone just enough
I had a truly good day
I felt free and loved
How could I have a good day
Can I ever be at peace
knowing I was having the time of my life
When GOD took you from me

Of course it's not about me
You suffered much too long
Your family and friends will miss you
For your children we'll be strong
I never thought you'd leave me
BUt I hold on to my faith
That GOD knows how to comfort me
Now that you've gone away

You know I had to write this
It's the way I handle pain
The way I feel this moment
Is hard to even explain
So I write this poem to you
In the way that you liked best
So that you know I love you
Go on Stu, go take your rest.

I miss you already.





My baby brother, Stuart R Bowers, passed away tonight. He loved it when I wrote and even more so when I rhymed. I thank you all for your support, calls, texts and prayers.
Please continue to pray for my family. We need your prayers more now than ever.

Vanessa

My petition

I know you can hear me
So I talk to you
I read, tell jokes and
hold conversations just like we always have
so damned hardheaded
now we all must watch
as you fight your way back
from where ever your body has hidden you
jusyt to see you like this tears me apart
I hold on to my faith but I still have fear
What if GOD's will doesn't match mine
no one knows me like you do
you've been my rock
since I was two years old
The person I'd turn to is normally you
who will speak my language now


Please LORD please
watch over my brother
heal him and make him strong
Strengthen us all so that we can support him and Karla
Hold his children and grandaughter, LORD
We need you now to comfort us and provide us with peace
that only our faith in you can provide
I ask this in the mighty name of JESUS!
Amen!