Scream

Sitting in a crowd but I am so alone
I ask myself why GOD chose now to take you home
and then I realize time don't matter much at all
you leaving before me was gonna make me fall
fall to the hurt the rage wtf didn't they do
I know that it was GOD. there was nothing they could do
SO how do I get over this rage this pain
Cuz this is so intense I feel flesh melting away
I am trying to remember in the few days that you've been gone
I am trying to hold my head up trying to hold on
but my world is so off center I reach out for the sides
don't tell me this gets better I just lost half my life
See only you share my childhood memories
Only you knew all my dreams
You knew how to talk me down when I climbed up in a tree
I am angry I am lost I am sore I have hope
I cry looking out windows I cry when I see scope
yeah mouthwash sets me offI can't stop I can't fight
I see you in my sleep so I barely sleep at night
I walk around on edge I just snap at anything
I am sorry but this gets worse every fukkin dayo
h GOD please come get me before I do or say
This is out of order he was the baby of the bunch
LORD why please tell me why Stu had to go from us
I know I have to go on and live without him now
but I need someone to show me cuz I just don't know how