Frontin' Is A Habit.

I know that is a humorous title but the situation is far from funny. Frontin' has become a way of life. Sometimes it seems that everyone is so busy trying to play fantastic that I haven't met a real person in quite some time. I meet a lot of personnas but not real people. People love to blame the media for everything but the truth of the matter is that the tv isn't forcing you to buy things that, most of the time, you don't even use. Materialism is the religion you choose for yourself. If the GOD you worship is a Prada purse or a Dolce and Gabbana shoes maybe you need to rethink your values a bit.

Don't get me wrong I like nice things just like the next person. Maybe even more so. The difference is that I won't go hungry so that I can buy something unless it's a necessity for my kid. Notice I said N E C E S S I T Y. Having my hair popped or buying that new dress is not a neccessity. Sorry. I live within my means, which are kinda limited because of the current state of things but that is just a fact of life. Even when things weren't so tight I still wasn't into buying things I can't afford. Sure I have some serious art in my home and on my page and yes I own them all. I didn't buy them, I inherited them. My dad had it like that.... I don't. If I could afford to stunt like my momma and daddy, I'd be doing it up. Fortunately, I was raised to understand that things are just things. My parents worked hard to acquire their lifestyle and I simply have to make some changes in my career choices so that I can do the same. I'm not a truly late bloomer, I just had disctractions & responsibilities (check the post "Damaged Goods" for the run down on that one) but I have not been desititute either. I have done just fine so far because I never let materilism control my sense of self worth.


I guess my point is that I musta missed a memo. Somehow somewhere I didn't get the one that told me that in order to be a person of value I had to be a person of means. And if I didn't have the means it was ok to fake it at all costs to common sense. I'm really not that upset about it either. The way I see it that is one loop that I'm glad I got left out of cuz it means there is one more hoop I don't have to refuse to jump through in order to have joy.