The introduction - Part II

I don’t expect you to care about what I write here. It’s not like you know me. Or even care to. I just have something to say. I have been living on this planet allowing everyone to tell me about me. I knew better than to think you had a clue… you just kept thinking and studying and did not nearly enough listening and hearing. You’d watch the way I walk but wouldn’t say a damned thing in my defense when you knew I was being lied on. Or beaten or hurt in some other way. So since you decided to study and assume. I’ve decided to educate. I’ve decided it was time to actually tell you the truth about what you think you know. At least as far as I fit in the picture. You are going to hear me from a novel point of view. My own. I’m Neccessary Brown. This is not a game, this is my life.


I have good reason to feel this way. People. People will make you want to cut fool on them sometimes. I have no clue as to why peopls have made themselves the authority on who I am and what I’m allowed to be. I just know I can't let it continue.

I’ve listened to “expert” after damned “expert” explain to me why I am the way I am. Whether they made excuses, spewed hate or disdain, preached with an agenda, or was just plain trying to sway me to their way of thinking. It's as if my life experiences didn’t exist or didn’t matter. I have had everyone, their dad, mom, sister, Uncle James and first cousin Cephus from Meridian, try to tell me who I am and what I am about. I’m just tired of listening to it. I’ve been through some things. Some serious type things. Some of it was good, some of it was bad, very little of it was average. Some of it so bad that if there really are other people out there that can understand all this I really don’t wanna know.


I am not speaking for anyone but myself. That would make me no better than those I rail against. I just need someone to hear from me, in my own words, what it’s really like being me. What I think. How I feel. What matters to me most. You don’t know me but you will. Just hold still. This is bout to be one hell of a ride.