A little over 2 months ago I made the decision to give my life over to GOD. In the process I have learned a lot about myself, my upbringing, and my little corner of the world I live in. I have had a sense of peace and joy that would have been unimaginable for me before I changed. GOD has moved in my life and done so rather quickly. My level of understanding has increased and I am definitley more kind and loving.... but I am not a saint.
Don't get me wrong, I am a true believer.... I know my Savior and I read the word as often as I can. I attend church and bible study. I have purified my mind and body. I have done all I can to aloow GOD to do his will through me. I have been obedient in every area except one. I just haven't made that step into perfection that other saints have made. I haven't learned how to take being disrespected in stride. I don't know how to not let a person know when they have offended me. I am not slow to anger. I am a sinner through and through and my temper is legendary round these parts. I have tried to order my words into soft and gentle redirection but that just never works out for me, my tone always gives me away. Saying something nice while I'm mad enough to chew buildings and spit bricks tends to come across as sarcastic and are very counter productive. Trust me on this.
So rather than be a thorn in all sides, I have started practicing silence. Instead of speaking my mind I have begun to make no reply at all. Of course that usually angers someone that's angling for battle but I can't help that. It have come down to the point of me saying nothing when I can't say anything nice. On quite a few occasions lately I avioded a few minor skirmishes because I just plain didn't take the bait and I felt so much better for it. I wish I could say it was because I took the high road. In actuality the reason I enjoyed that appraoch was because it forced ther other person into submission.... you can't argue by yourself without looking a fool now can you?
*sweet smile*
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